On December 2nd 2015 I said Yes.
On May 7th I will be sealed in the new downtown Provo Temple to Chase for all time and eternity. That means forever. And I've always believed in forever.
*I'll be making the official date announcement later, but now you know its on May 7th*
You may know my past, or you may not. If you don't you may not understand how this is such a big deal to me. In the past 5 years the girl I am today is completely different than the girl I was 5 years ago. In these past 5 years I have gone through hell and back,. I've made many mistakes in these last 5 years, I've stumbled, I've given up on God and on the gospel. I've broken promises. I've hurt others and I've hurt myself. I've been putting my broken self back together again. Its been a long road to where I am now, through all my stumbles and inconsistencies I've finally become someone I am proud of.
At the beginning of the year 2015 I hit a pretty low point, I was lonely, living in a place where I didn't have anyone to be my friend and invite me outside, and I didn't feel very cared about. So I starting seeking out the attention that I yearned for so deeply, but I saught it out in the wrong places which left me feeling worse than before. So then I made a pact with myself. I was going to be good, I was going to live the Gospel, finally finish reading the Book of Mormon, and focus on that aspect of myself more than I ever had before.
One month after making that promise to myself and to God, I met Chase. My job at the time didn't create many possibilities of meeting people in a normal social setting, so I met him on a dating app, which is really funny now. The other dates I had been on from people I had met on Tinder weren't always too much fun, although some of them were--but none of them ever worked out, well that is until Chase came along.
I had actually decided to delete my tinder, so I posted one last photo update and said I was deleting it, so if anyone wanted my number they better ask right now.
And thats when Chase asked for my number.
He asked me on a date on February 19th, and the choices were either Noodles and Co or Brick Oven. I love pizza, so pizza it was. The date was awful. Chase was tired from an early morning of delivering flowers, and didn't talk much--so I decided I didn't want to go out with him again. As we were leaving he asked if I could drop him off at his house, so of course I said yes and we both got in my car.
His house was right across the street, like a 2 second walk away.
I laughed as I pulled into the driveway, and he offered to show me around the place. I didn't have anything better to do with my day, so I accepted the offer and entered the old brick house. It was all boys, so it wasn't very pretty inside. But he showed me his music room/recording studio space, which he hadn't mentioned anything about before. And then we went back outside by our cars. He offered me and energy drink since he had a whole case of them from his 3am flower delivery that morning, and once we were juiced up on caffeine, his real personality came out--and then I decided I actually kind of liked him.
We stood by our cars for a good hour just talking, and then I said I had to go home. When I got home I texted my 2 best girl friends about Chase. I liked him but I wasn't 100% sure about him yet, and there were 2 other guys I was going on dates with as well. Chase texted me later on in the day and asked me if I wanted to hangout again. I still didn't have any other plans so I said yes. We drove in his car to the middle of nowhere past Spanish Fork and up some big hill/mountain to look at the city lights. On the way there we blasted music and sang Yesterday by Atmosphere together--we both knew all the words. I don't find too many people who know Atmosphere, let alone can rap the whole song like I can. So I was quite impressed.
We stayed up there, parked by a church for a good hour and a half looking at the stars and the city lights and just talking. We became friends instantly, he made me laugh, and we made fun of each other, it was like we had known each other for months, but it was only just a day.
The very next day we did a Photo shoot down in Santaquin at this old abandoned Mill factory. (best date ever) And then for the rest of the week until I left for work again, we spent everyday together expect for one. I told him I wanted to take everything really slow, and that I didn't want a boyfriend. He said he didn't want to date anyone else. And I said, well I am dating other guys, and he said that's fine I can wait.
It wasn't too long after that I stopped dating those 2 other guys, and was only going out with Chase, but I still didn't want him to be my boyfriend so I made him wait until April 2nd. And this month we have officially been dating for 8 months. In those 8 months we have road-tripped across the entire country to visit his mission in Alabama, and move to NC to work for a company that we didn't end up working for. We dated long distance over the summer while l lived back at home in NC and he lived in Nashville TN. We nearly broke up for good over the summer but we didn't. We have a dog together (she was mine first/ I actually picked her out in February) We've gone on countless adventures here in Utah, he took me to the temple on my second temple trip back from long break of not going and baptized me in behalf of someone else. We've helped each other chase our dreams, and we've made each other better, and happier people.
Photos from our second date at the Mill
Chase is the best guy I've ever known, he is the most spiritual friend I have ever had, which has helped in the strengthening of my faith and testimony. Not only has Chase been my boyfriend, but he has been my best friend--my everything. He is everything I could have ever wanted and so much more. Chase has helped glue back my broken pieces better then I could have done myself, he's helped me become the person I've always wanted to be, the person who I always have been but haven't lived true to. And he's helped me live true, true to what I believe in, true to myself and to my promises.
And to be able to be sealed to my best friend forever in such a sacred and spiritual way inside of the Temple is what I've dreamed of my whole life. And I am so excited for it.
Photos from the proposal at the Mill